I'm not a big fan of feelings and emotions....or should I say, I'm not a fan of sharing feelings and emotions. I'm very private with how I feel about things, things I worry about, and all that junk. I only share very personal thoughts with a few people and I've known those people for a long time...a very long time.
Anyway, this is something that all of my friends will try to understand if I talk to them about it, and in some aspects I have talked to them, but I'm just struggling with this one issue lately; body image.
I don't even really know how to say it, but I've been really been having issues with how I look and how other people look. I keep comparing myself to other girls that I see. I know that I shouldn't do that, but it's really difficult not to.
I'm happy with what I'm doing, how I look, and that I'm still in the process of losing weight. I just keep comparing myself to other girls and it's driving me crazy. Half the time I know that I don't even want to look like the girls that I see, but I just think that they look better than me and I suddenly feel like I felt a year and a half ago.
Really, I've been feeling that all the time. I feel like I did before I started all of this. I also feel like that how people are viewing me and I know that's not true.
I'm just fighting with myself lately and I don't even really have a reason why. This feeling has just been creeping up on me lately. I know I'm being ridiculous.