Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Zumba.....no way.

Against my better judgement I tried Zumba.....for 10 minutes. It's all I could tolerate. 

Ok, I'm not a dancer. I'm not coordinated. I don't follow dance steps. I need to go slower and take more time. I don't feel energetic. I don't want to shake my ass, jump in the air, and wave my arms around. 

I tried to leave before we even started when the instructor was calling out the steps to a new dance/song they were going to be doing. 

Ok, let me back up.....Ashley asked if we would go Zumba. I was hesitant, but Janelle reminded me that I would probably burn a ton of calories. I'm all about burning the calories. She also said we were sure to have fun....yea, right. 

I tell Kelly that this is all going down tonight and she says that she wants to go because she has been trying to get me to go to Zumba for a long time. 

When we were standing around waiting for the class to begin I started having that panic feeling that I didn't want to be there. I can't quite explain it, but it's an overwhelming feeling I get when I start to feel uncomfortable. (I guess it's like that fight or flight attitude) I just start saying that I want to leave and I'll just walk while they are taking the class. 

I tried to grab my keys a few times and leave, but Ashley kept grabbing my arm to make me stay. Kelly kept calling me a baby. Janelle kept telling me the class hadn't even started, I needed to give it a try, and no one cares what I look like. 

All I know is, I had to get the eff out of that room. I'm sure no one does care what I look like while doing the Zumba crap, but I care. I know they could care less what I look like, but to me  everyone is staring at me and I just can't stand that thought. I love to be the center of attention if I'm comfortable with what I'm doing. I was not comfortable even standing in that room with all those other people in there. 

So, I tried to leave again, and I was stopped. I love my friends, but I was about to flip out on them. I had to get out of that room. 

The class started and I could not follow what was happening. I was so frustrated. They all keep telling me to try and I'm not even putting in any effort. 

I don't know how to put effort and energy into something that I can't even follow. I was miserable. I can't even explain how miserable. I was also frustrated. I'm one of those people that will rarely, rarely cry, unless I'm frustrated. I was so frustrated that I finally just told them I was going to get water. I never went back. (Ok, I stayed for like 1.5 songs)

I just got on the treadmill and then the bike and waited for them to finish up. Ashley came out at one point and tried to get me back in there. 

I don't know why I would want to do a workout that does nothing but frustrate me. I felt nothing exciting or fun about the time I was in there. It was awful. I'm upset just thinking about it now. 

They can think I was being a baby all they want. I know the real reasons that I left. I don't feel the need to explain myself and why I didn't want to be there. I will not ever do that again either. I would rather lift. 


  1. Don't apologize! We cant enjoy every form of exercise! I am deathly scared of a spinning class.. other people love it! That's why there are so many classes...so everyone finds something they love. Good for you for leaving that class and jumping on a treadmill!

  2. I recently started doing zumba. At first I was like "what the hell..." when everyone was going right I was going left and so on lol. The first few minutes were the worst, I thought I would die, seriously I thought about telling my mom to get me a priest ready. ANYWAY I have motor skill disabilities and even me kind of got the hang of it so far. Last time I went I was looking around and I would say about 75% of the people were lost lol. So if you want to try again I am sure eventually you would get the hang of it but if not just stick to what your doing, it's working!

    ps- I think you at least going into the room was effort, I can't stand when people say you are not trying.

  3. Awe. I was so hoping that everyone in the world would love Zumba. But, hey, You went, you tried. The most important part is that when you found out it wasn't for you, you didn't sit and sulk. You went and worked out where you felt comfortable. That's AWESOME!!!

  4. I just went to the Zumba class at my gym today. I've done Zumba before, but this was the first time at this place. I have to admit, I LOVE most of it, but some things are just like "How are you possibly doing that?!" I didn't feel too bad though because the whole class was struggling with what the instructor was doing and it wasn't just me :P She must've mistaken us for the Advanced Zumba class or something.

    Good job trying it out though and still exercising after it didn't work out!!

  5. I tend to hate things when I am pushed into them. If it was my idea to try a workout class, I would give it my all but it's like trying to get someone to like sushi. Some people just don't like it and trying to make them like it is just as dumb.

    Personally, I love the solitude of my exercise. I love talking to people at the gym between lifting sets but if you try and talk to me during cardio, I am going to get my cardio by dancing on your face. Don't talk to me, I'm trying to chunky trot.

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  6. I love Zumba. I am not cordinated, I have been going since November and still can't do a full routine without watching the instructor.

    But some exercises are not for everyone and if you are forced to do something its going to make you not like it even more.

  7. I get how you feel honey! This is our own journey to figure out do what you love and you dont have to do anything you dont want to :)

  8. Finally! I thought I was the only other person on the planet who doesn't Zumba. So many folks talk about it as if it were a new religion or something - they get this glazed look in their eyes and I suspect mass hypnosis :)

    Anyway, also just wanted to make a first time comment as I've been reading for a few weeks now and really enjoying your blog!