Monday, August 6, 2012

Update time

So, here's the low down on July. I was working out like a maniac, but finding too many reasons to "cheat" on my meal plan. So what does that mean as far as weight loss? No weight lost. That's what it mean.

I'm still at the same place I was at the end of July. 133 pounds gone, forever.

I'm kind of at a crossroads right now. I know that I'm not at my healthiest weight and  my healthiest body fat percentage. I know I still have some weight to lose and it's not even that much. Maybe like 20 pounds, but I'm happy with the progress I have made. I mean, I lost 133 pounds and that seemed easy compared to staying motivated to lose this last 20. Why is this last 20 pounds so hard?

I do want to get that last little bit off, but I'm struggling. I know summer has something to do with it, but I can't use that as an excuse. I'm also worrying that I'm letting other people down if I don't lose these last few pounds.

I would feel freaking awesome to get down to my healthiest weight and fat percentage. I would probably smile from ear to ear for a month. I mean, going from morbidly obese to lean....that would effing rock. I'm almost there where has my motivation gone?

I know this turned into some random babbling, but I just had to get some of this off my chest.


  1. I've never made it all the way and in the back of my mind that is a scary thought. I've been close a couple times, both times I got pregnant and then it was the excuse. Eating for two after all.
    Let me know what you figure out, if anything! And good luck!!!!

  2. I know how you feel! I am at the same place, struggling to lose the last 20-30lbs. I lost 80lbs, then started feeling better about myself and started slacking off.. and gained 10-12lbs back. Now I am back trying to be good and get those last pounds off, but it seems to be so much harder than when I was bigger, especially motivation-wise.

    By the way tho, 133lbs down is AMAZING, that is so awesome!! Congrats!

  3. Many of us out here know all about getting relaxed and feeling good...then the next thing you know it's a lot harder to stay motivated. I'm not sure if this helps at all but I discovered that I can take a motivation holiday, knowing that I WILL get there again. I am still very careful but I have found it refreshes me a bit and I don't beat myself up about it anymore either! Good luck figuring it have been on an amazing journey and I know you can get to where you want to be!

  4. Way to go on the 133 pounds! You will find the motivation to lose the last little bit, even though it will be a struggle. The last 20 are a struggle for everyone no matter how much you've already lost. It just seems to slow down and immediate results don't seem to come, which is very frustrating. You'll pull through, though, just keep at it!!

  5. You've come a long way. Focus on that! Sometimes, we can be our own worst enemy. Try to stay positive & know we're supporting you.