Maybe this happens with some of you as well....
Lately I feel like I'm falling off the wagon. I'm not really falling off the wagon, but I'm struggling to stick to my plan and workouts and what-not. I'm doing everything that I have to do, but I have to work much harder to make myself do it.
I'm trying to find reasons to skip the gym, I'm trying to find reasons to eat a restaurants more often, I'm trying to find reasons to not plan my meals and not count my calories. I'm still doing everything I have to do, but I'm totally having mental arguments with myself.
I think it's because I'm getting close to my target weight. I think I'm getting so close to the end that my twisted mind is tryin to sabotoge me!
That might sound totall crazy, but it's true. I want to get to my goal, my target, and maintain after that. I know the end is just around the corner, but it's like my mind is afraid of having another change and a little more freedom in food choice.
I tell my students all the time that when they feel themselves becoming succcessful that they sabotoge themselves. I talk to them about ways to stop doing that and to be successful and be confident in successful. I need to take some of my own adice right now!
It's good you're nipping the self-sabotage in the bud right away! Finish strong!
ReplyDeleteI think you are definitely going to kick your goals ass. Visualization usually works for me when I want to quit. Maybe visualize what it was like to workout 120 lbs ago. Or think of yourself rocking some look you really want. (my usual choice!)
ReplyDeleteI have trouble with self-sabotage too. I'm new to reading your blog, so I don't know you that well, but you can't have gotten as far as you have without getting excellent at kicking your own ass and getting it done. I bet you can do it, just keep swimming!
ReplyDeleteIt's good you're recognizing the self-sabatoge thing and you're going to do something about it..yay you! I'm all about self-sabatoge in so many areas of my life! Good luck, although I don't thing you'll need it, given how far you've already come...you are a strong woman!
ReplyDeleteOne thing I wonder is what happens when you get to your goal weight... how does your life change, when suddenly it's not about losing weight but about maintaining. What if you are still unhappy with yourself.... what if you're never happy? I think reaching goal can be a scary thing and self-sabotage sounds normal. I wish you good luck in identifying when you're doing it and pushing through it!
ReplyDeleteI went through the exact same thing just before I hit my goal. I made so many excuses and nearly threw all the hardwork away.
ReplyDeleteYou've just got to keep pushing yourself as much as you can and keep battling. You can do it! Set yourself tiny goals even if they're easily achievable goals. You'll feel good about hitting them and you'll continue to want to hit them and before you know it, you'll be celebrating by being at goal weight.
Did you do that in the beginning too? Emily's theory on the change that happens when you get to the goal is interesting because you could go through that in the beginning, too. Guess what I'm getting at is, you know it gets better and you know you'll get through it. :)
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